Maybe I am just a full blown idiot! I mean come on! The father of my son is just begging for me to go off on him. I recently found out that he's been smoking in the same area as my son! Not only that but he is sick with the same crap as I had and he is getting pissed because I asked him to watch my DS while I ran to the store for some supplies. He didn't let me rest even though I was sick with a fever and had a head cold for a minute even though there was milk stored in the fridge. NO, I was woken up every single time he let out a little whine. I was woke up to change his diaper, feed him, wash the laundry, do the dishes, take down the christmas decor, cook dinner. I was so sick I kept getting dizzy and I wasn't allowed to rest at all. I am just so ready to say F you and take my taxes, my son and run away! I don't think he would notice much less care. I'm so upset I am starting to hate myself for meeting him, granted I am thankful for my son, but I am really beginning not to be thankful for my father's son. I feel ugly, worthless, fat, used and like I have no place. I just want to cry.