Burp mcgurk, Star Mom's Blog – January 2011 Archive (11)

not really sure why, but i got really sick last night. my dad made chicken divan, which is a sort of specialty of his. apparently it didn't agree with me this time. i felt sick to my stomach all night and at midnight, after tommy finished nursing, i got in the shower to try to help my stuffy headache. he must really know when i'm not feeling well cuz for the first time EVER he didn't wake up when i crept back into bed. as i did my sids check, i noticed that not only had he rolled over onto…

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tommy has been as;ldigjaoirejg;aoseirg all weekend. i don't even think there's a word for it. nothing will soothe him or calm him down or distract him. no teeth visible. no bump. no swelling. no discoloration. no tight tummy. had a good nights sleep thursday. was it because the snow-induced days off messed up his schedule so by saturday he was sick of spending time with me? we spent the first two nights at pawpaws, and he was evil then, but that was because he had gotten shots on wednesday.…

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today is tommy's six month birthday! we braved the treacherous ice, slush, snow and freezing rain to make it to his appointment a very modest 30 minutes late. we were the second patients to show up, thank goodness. if i had known how bad the drive would be, i wouldn't have gone. i was super excited to find out his weight and length, but not at that cost. but on to the good stuff!

weight: 17.1 oz (50th percentile!)

length: 28.8 inches (95th percentile!)

very happy,…

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i consider things that aren't baby toys but work just as well, if not better, simple toys. things like bows and ribbons, wrapping paper, tissue paper, empty bottles of water, aspirin bottles... things that fascinate and occupy that are already lying around the house.

last night i had tommy sitting on the middle of the bed. he doesn't need the boppy to sit upright anymore, but to be on the safe side i put it around him anyway. i have decided he doesn't need it any more mostly because…

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i've been having a hard time deciding how to refer to my mom when i talk about her to tommy. i have absolutely no idea what she would have wanted to be called. i interviewed a lot of names. she's definitely not a nanny, nana or a nan. not a mom-mom. not a granny and grammy is already taken. she would have hated mawmaw even though i love it. we called her mom oma (german for grandmother). we called her dad grandpa, but she definitely wouldn't go for grandma. probably not gramma either. i…

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apparently it's not the formula.i've been pumping enough that tommy went four days with just breast milk. i think it might be the breast milk. or not so much the milk, as maybe his intestinal force. the amount and distance this boy gets is phenomenal. we had our first scrub it out of the carpet moment last weekend. then he pooped all over pawpaw a few days later. he was wearing a diaper both times!

as for over night leaks, as long as i don't use vaseline or desitin, he doesn't leak.…

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i started an every-two-hour pumping schedule a few days ago but it didn't seem to make a diffence. i dug out the reglan rx i got way back when and all it did was make me sick to my stomach. my aunt passed away yesterday am and i was about to give up on breast feeding altogether when...my supply went back up to 15 oz. i took some time to get some fresh air and went to gnc and got fenugreek (the only item they had in stock for boosting supply). no luck for the rest of the night. at this point…

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it occurred to me today that my lack of supply is not of my own doing. tommy has started nursing less and pacifying more overnight, and as for nursing, he does not do it as often or for as long. whaaaaaaaaaaaatttt??? how could i have missed this? DENIAL!! i pumped ten oz where i normally pumped 20 oz in the same time span. i hate this. tommmmmmyyyyyyyyyyyy. what are you doing to your mommy?? i don't want to stop. this isn't fair!! do you know how much pumping sucks and i did it all this time…

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on the one hand, i lose hours a week from my paycheck by pumping. i don't get to enjoy my breaks  because i have to eat on my feet and run usually with the last two bites in my hand to get back to work. my bosses make it clear that pumping is well past the cute stage. i end up covered in dirt and have to battle to get it off of me and keep it out of the bottles and shields. and i absolutely have to shower before i can nurse tommy once we're home. i constantly forget to take the milk with me…

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so tommy jusy blasted as per usual. i had a sensation of leaking diaper on my lap. i assumed his poop was soaking into my pants. upon further investigation i found that he indeed was leaking, but not through to my pants. i never knew i could use my lap as a poopie detector. oh, the powers of motherhood.

this past year was truly a roller coaster ride. the ups and downs were relentless. i saw the best and worst of the universe, friends and family, complete strangers and myself. my dad and his best friend bounced back and forth from hospitalization to hospitalization. my brother fell deeper into addiction. two run-ins with the law. i fell into a severe depression, unsure if i should even continue with a pregnancy i couldn't even begin to be happy about. i was pregnant during one of the worst…

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