Well its been a rough couple years. I was homeless and struggling to take care of myself, i had my fiance James and he has been a great help. But when we found out about the baby i was really scared. My mother has taken us in so that we have a place to stay while we work out our problems, I love my Son with all my heart, and i just wish i could do more for him. James is looking for a job, i would too but i dont have ID because i have been having problems getting my birth certificate. once he gets to work im hoping things will get better, my mom wants to pay for the stuff we need until he can get to work, i feel bad having her do that, my mom has alot of health problems and she should be focusing on that. well i guess what im saying is i could really use some words of encouragement, i have been getting down on myself alot, i know my son is in good hands, but i cant help but worry about him.
I just want to give you a big hug right now. I couldn't possibly imagine what you are going through. It may not look like it to you, but from an outsider's point of view you are so stronger for being able to overcome what you have so far and working hard to overcome more and more. That is very sweet of your mom, but you have to remember she is a mom so it is her natural instinct to help her child just like you have a natural instinct to take care of you son. You can do this! Try not to get down on yourself because you are trying and that is worth so much! Keep positive thoughts like I WILL DO THIS and a I WILL MAKE IT THROUGH. And when you do it, you will look back and not know how you did it but THAT YOU DID IT!
thank you sooo much:) and i do encourage myself everyday, and my fiance also keeps me goin:) just every now and then i get down on myself and feel like im some how going to do something wrong, or that im not going to be able to give my baby all he wants and needs. i mean in my heart i know everything is going to be ok, but for some reason i have this voice in my head telling me that something is going to go wrong, and stuff like that... and strong? i have never thought of myself as a strong person, but in a way i guess your right:) i have gone through alot and im still alive and kickin.... so thank you sooo much:) this really meant alot to me:)
I can understand what you are saying. Life is tough, and throwing a new baby in the mix can make it even tougher. The GOOD thing is, it sounds like you have a great support system. If you have a great support system, it's hard to go wrong. You have your Mom able and willing to help you out w/ a roof over your head and financially for the babies needs, and you have a fiance who seems to be sticking by your side trying to do what he can to provide something better for you guys. I know you feel there are challenges... but focus on what things are stopping you from overcoming these challenges. It sounds like you feel like the way out of this is you both get a job, that's a good start that James is looking, in the mean time help him (from home) by looking on the internet too... I did this for my husband and he landed the best job ever that way! For you, you say the problem is your birth certificate- there is an online website you can order it from, if YOU are having trouble requesting it... have your Mom request it w/ her ID, each area has guidelines on what they need to show proof of relation, but having your Mom request it might be the quickest option... then STEP 2- get your ID when your birth certificate arrives, then STEP 3- start applying for jobs. For whatever you want to accomplish, setup an action plan. What you want is very obtainable once you work at it. You have no reason to get down on yourself, take control and set goals for yourself- accomplishing them one step at a time. Good luck, and just remember you are not alone... you have some great people by your side helping you through. You've already shown you are a strong-willed person- from being homeless and unable to take care of yourself, to now having a roof over your head and soon having a child of your own to take care of. You've come a long way as it is, don't let these challenges you face now get in the way of the things you want to accomplish in life :)
You are not weak for needing help. You are human. Your responsibility is your baby, and as long as you can give him love and basic needs, you are doing a great job. What makes you different from some that are perhaps in a similar situation, is that- you are strong enough to make an effort, to accept help from others, and to keep both motivation and love flowing. That is most important. Do not give up. We are all the same. You deserve life. You chose life.